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Oct. 17th, 2011 11:35 pmHaven’t felt much like posting lately, not surprising I guess.
Night time seems to be when it hits, when I’m laying in bed and everything’s quiet. In the day I’m pretty good, I’m able to shut down to the point it’s almost scary. And it’s a lot easier not being at home.
Still in guilt/regret mode, all the could’ve/should’ve. Etc.
My Mum had a really strange dream about her, I asked her to write it up so I can post it here.
Haven’t heard anything about her ashes, it’s been 3 weeks now...does it really take that long?
James and I took Sierra out the other day, plopped her in her carrier with her harness on and drove to Tisol. She was a little worried but interested. Went inside and got her a really nice leash. She met some new people and was fine with that. Walked around the store as bit but was a bit scared.
Next we took her over to Petsmart. She had a small spazz attack but once we took her over to watch the fish she calmed down. Tense but watching, checked out some birds too and then we looked at a kitty that was up for adoption. I was worried one or both might flip out and hiss but the kitty behind the glass was very interested in Sierra and came up to the glass to say hello, Sierra watched him as he meowed a hello, he even batted a ball and then looked up at her as if saying “come play with me”
We had planned on buying her some little demon wings for a costume for only $5 but they had sold out. :X Blah. And the other costumes were either too expensive or too big. I’m hoping I can maybe whip something up before the Halloween party at Petsmart this Saturday.
We will probably wait in the car until last minute to get her photo done since she hate’s dogs and we don’t want to stress her out.
I finally used the Michael’s gift card Caitlin got me for Christmas. I picked up a little wooden box, some wooden letters; hear shapes, a bunch of paints (hello awesome sales omg), sponge brushes and some yarn because I want to start knitting again.
Painted the box up and made Sierra a little toybox ^_^
I had to watch some Youtube tutorials on knitting because I could not remember how to cast on....only how to do the basic knit stitch. Figured that out and have just been practicing. I might have to take the knitting course at Renaissance Books someday.
Luna gets in this Sunday (yay!), just before she comes James and I will be at Mountain View Cemetery because we signed up for a little make a memorial thingy (only $5), then we will go pick Lude up from the train station.
She’s bringing up her tablet which will be very nifty to show Sierra, especially since Sierra is OBSESSED with the computer...she will watch Youtube for ages and actually gets annoyed if she wants on and you are on. I’ve also never met a cat that notices just flat photo’s....if I am looking at a cat photo she knows it...and will touch the screen. Lude said she even has an app. For kitties so that should be fun to see.
Lude, James and I will be going to the Lost Souls at the cemetery on the 29th and then to the Lost Souls downtown. No idea what the hell I’m dressing as though, I don’t feel like freezing my ass off like I usually do. If I had a decent sized square of red material I have an idea....anyone got one to spare?
Other than that nothing exciting, had a nice thanksgiving/birthday party for my Mum. James got me the Hello Kitty bake tin, my computer is still dead and will remain so until Jon or Johnny can get up here (help! :P), been baking when I can...James has an adorable kitchen (but too small omg o_o)
( bunch of photos )
Night time seems to be when it hits, when I’m laying in bed and everything’s quiet. In the day I’m pretty good, I’m able to shut down to the point it’s almost scary. And it’s a lot easier not being at home.
Still in guilt/regret mode, all the could’ve/should’ve. Etc.
My Mum had a really strange dream about her, I asked her to write it up so I can post it here.
Haven’t heard anything about her ashes, it’s been 3 weeks now...does it really take that long?
James and I took Sierra out the other day, plopped her in her carrier with her harness on and drove to Tisol. She was a little worried but interested. Went inside and got her a really nice leash. She met some new people and was fine with that. Walked around the store as bit but was a bit scared.
Next we took her over to Petsmart. She had a small spazz attack but once we took her over to watch the fish she calmed down. Tense but watching, checked out some birds too and then we looked at a kitty that was up for adoption. I was worried one or both might flip out and hiss but the kitty behind the glass was very interested in Sierra and came up to the glass to say hello, Sierra watched him as he meowed a hello, he even batted a ball and then looked up at her as if saying “come play with me”
We had planned on buying her some little demon wings for a costume for only $5 but they had sold out. :X Blah. And the other costumes were either too expensive or too big. I’m hoping I can maybe whip something up before the Halloween party at Petsmart this Saturday.
We will probably wait in the car until last minute to get her photo done since she hate’s dogs and we don’t want to stress her out.
I finally used the Michael’s gift card Caitlin got me for Christmas. I picked up a little wooden box, some wooden letters; hear shapes, a bunch of paints (hello awesome sales omg), sponge brushes and some yarn because I want to start knitting again.
Painted the box up and made Sierra a little toybox ^_^
I had to watch some Youtube tutorials on knitting because I could not remember how to cast on....only how to do the basic knit stitch. Figured that out and have just been practicing. I might have to take the knitting course at Renaissance Books someday.
Luna gets in this Sunday (yay!), just before she comes James and I will be at Mountain View Cemetery because we signed up for a little make a memorial thingy (only $5), then we will go pick Lude up from the train station.
She’s bringing up her tablet which will be very nifty to show Sierra, especially since Sierra is OBSESSED with the computer...she will watch Youtube for ages and actually gets annoyed if she wants on and you are on. I’ve also never met a cat that notices just flat photo’s....if I am looking at a cat photo she knows it...and will touch the screen. Lude said she even has an app. For kitties so that should be fun to see.
Lude, James and I will be going to the Lost Souls at the cemetery on the 29th and then to the Lost Souls downtown. No idea what the hell I’m dressing as though, I don’t feel like freezing my ass off like I usually do. If I had a decent sized square of red material I have an idea....anyone got one to spare?
Other than that nothing exciting, had a nice thanksgiving/birthday party for my Mum. James got me the Hello Kitty bake tin, my computer is still dead and will remain so until Jon or Johnny can get up here (help! :P), been baking when I can...James has an adorable kitchen (but too small omg o_o)
( bunch of photos )